so, I decided, why not take books I love or books I’ve read, and pair them with a song I love. this will also give you more books for your TBR AND more songs for your playlists, so it’s a win-win for everyone.

without further ado…

anywhere but here | PVRIS

it feels so sad in the summer//we're goin' under//pull up the covers//sounds like car crashin' thunder//losin' a lover//your mother, your brother//I want, I want you to take me//anywhere but here//I want, I want you to take me//anywhere but here, anywhere but here

I could explain how this whole song is absolutely The Raven Cycle, but then I'd have to post all the lyrics and that is not today's post. but just go listen to the song and tell me it doesn't make you think of Gansey and Blue and the Raven Boys going out into the woods and speaking Latin to the trees. 

diving bell | STARSET

oh, this wasn't in my plans//abandoned ship and heading for the sand//oh, the albatross crash-lands//I've got the sinking feeling that I never can go home//if I stare into the abyss will it stare into me//in my mind//endless sea//calling from the bottom but you don't hear me//send your line//down to me//meet me on the surface I will never leave

okay hear me out. I know y'all are probably tired of me screaming about STARSET every chance I get. I know not everyone is going to be into rock music. HOWEVER, this is Nikolai's song. there is not one song besides this one that could ever describe Nikolai more. this song is definitely my favorite song of all time, but I have always thought it fits Nikolai in the Shadow and Bone trilogy. Maybe even in the King of Scars duology. Give this song a chance, it's not heavy on the rock side, and imagine Nikolai on his airship. it fits beautifully. case closed. 

winter | PVRIS

Alina and the Darkling. because THE DARKLING IS TOXIC. (Mal for the win, all day every day, please and thank you.) I feel like this captures Alina's realization that the Darkling is a toxic, toxic being. also the song is a bop and deserves more attention. 

I don't wanna ruin your party | Munn

'cause I don't wanna ruin your party//where you see all the damage you've caused me//you get everything that you wanted//I don't wanna ruin your party//a heart can't judge if eyеs don't see//the hellish ways you treated me//I'll take the pain and turn the cheek//I'll be the victim you'll always need

 hello. 

you may be wondering why you're seeing me here again. 

and the truth is, I'm an inconsistent human. I miss blogging. I miss blogger. I miss the height of blogging, something I feel very blessed to have been a part of. but I feel like there's been a rise in bloggers. I think there could be a blog revival if we try. 

but I thought I would come back and say hello. I want to blog again. I want to get back to posting here about writing. I've missed getting to the heart of why I do what I do. and that is writing. 

I don't know if I'll post every week, though I'll try to. but I want to create a writing community here, where we can all take a pause from life and the chaos and just breathe. 

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Hello and welcome back to my humble little blog!

Before we begin, let me address the elephant in the room. My blog name, URL, and appearance has changed a little. I needed something more neutral and this is my author blog. I talk about my books, writing advice, and a little about my life. While I'm not entirely sure I won't go back to Everglow (I have an identical blog header made with the title "Everglow" instead of my name just in case), I want this place to be like an author website. This is where you'll get more in-depth content that I don't post on social media. I loved having my blog named after a Starset song, but this change feels necessary. 

But I'm going through a season of changes. So I don't know what I might decide in a week or two. It's truly hard to navigate what I want with my branding right now. So bear with me on that. Now... onto the writing update!!

The last time I made a writing update was in November of 2021 so I felt like it was high time I gave y'all an update. As you know, I have two young adult dystopian books out called How We Rise and United We Fall. I am currently working on the third and final book to the RISE trilogy, called Here We Stand. 

Currently, my critique partner is reading through my book to give me feedback. I'm going to go through it when she finishes it, go over her comments and overall feedback, and edit some chapters that I know need some work. Then I'm going to work on scheduling my editor. And hopefully, this book will be ready before the year is over. Because I'm ready for it to come out into the world. I'm also ready to fix up the other two books and their formatting errors. 

In terms of a timeline... I don't have one yet. It's harder for me to put down a timeline when a lot of the big steps to making a book a reality have not been put in place. I truly want this book to be out this year. 

This book hasn't been the easiest to write. Endings are hard to finish. Goodbyes are hard to give. These characters have been a constant in my life for many years. Letting them go is a struggle. Yet at the same time, I've grown as a writer. My voice has changed over the years. 

The other issue is I have expectations, not only from myself but from my readers as well. And it's made me super scared to get this book wrong. It was recently that I finally decided that this book has to be what I need it to be. Because if I don't write it how I want it to be written, I will never be happy with it. And while it's hard to deal with writing these characters for the last time, I know that I'm finally on the right track with this book. 

If you follow me on Instagram (which you totally should), you'll have seen some quote posts from the third book. I love posting quotes from my books because they help remind me that there are good lines among the ones that I feel need help or fixing. 

So that's basically it for the writing update. I know this was short, but it's all I have for now. If you'd like to keep up with my writing journey, follow my Instagram. I post frequently and I'm always posting to my stories. 

Until next time...

Keep Rising <3

 *sighs* 

sometimes, I get into the groove of writing posts. Then I go radio silent for a while. I started making this blog more poetic and about my words... but I have a lot of thoughts that are too big for Instagram captions and that I want people to read. 

I want to invest real time and effort into this blog. But sometimes, that time and effort require energy I don't have. 

I have thoughts on the world and on writing books that I want to talk about. Sometimes I do just want to post poetry and words I've been writing down. 

So it's time for a change of pace. I'm going to remodel this blog. This means it may be under construction when you are reading this post. So don't be alarmed if it's all wonky. I'm shifting my focus to writing and publishing whatever the heck I want on this blog. 

It could be a post about opinions of on the world.

It could be about books and writing them.

it could be something else. 

I don't yet know exactly what I'm wanting to do, except everything and anything. I need the freedom to just do whatever I feel like doing. I love writing poetry and making aesthetic posts and sometimes I have opinions I don't know what to do with. 

Being an author has made blogging harder for me, personally, because I want to be professional but I also want to just post whatever is on my mind at the time. 

I fear getting canceled if an opinion I hold is too controversial but then again, I don't know how many people are going to read my blog. Maybe I'll bring in some new readers or maybe it will be my loyal tribe that's been here since day one. 

Either way, there are more things coming. 

I'm not dead and considering it's been a minute since I've posted, I'm sure y'all were wondering if I had taken up being a ghost, ready to haunt the world. While that sounds absolutely amazing at the moment, I am still a fleshy human being who has emotions and thoughts and feelings and nowhere else to put them except here. 

So yeah, that's about it for now. 

The remodel is coming soon or may be taking place when you read this. And then I will start publishing posts on anything I want to post about. 

keep rising, friends <3